whale talking (2)

"and for this hunt, my malady becomes my most desired health"
Herman Melville

I did not know that, about eleven years ago, my research would become the lighthouse of my life
I did not know that it would destroy many of the stereotypes that surrounded me
I did not know that it would trap me in a dimension that runs parallel to those of my other identities
I did not know that it would possess me in this sublte and yet definite way
I did not know that it would become an obsession which devours a part of me every day (I am almost gone, what then?)
I did not know that most of my friends would not even notice it
I did not know that it would take so much time to develop it (and I am still not done!)