suffering

Hurt again

by you demon

was it too much to accept a thank you?

Did you really have to be so nasty?

Now I truly need to protect

myself

I am not joking

you do not want me

I get that

no encounter

never

so what do you want me to do?

Just sit here

and keep chanting?

I cannot do that

the chant was born

to thank you

for your beautiful and stunning gift

then it became something else

and included you angel

for a while

then, when I was sure

we were going to meet,

it changed again

into something more

consistent

and personal

I did not know

I could write

like that

so I have to thank you

demon

for this as well

but this is too much

and is going nowhere

it is a complete failure

my chant has failed miserably

and has to stop

sorry

I really wanted the three of us

to keep this bond

but we cannot seem to find a solution

suitable for everybody

and my only desire has never ever

been fulfilled

this makes a big difference

I still care for both of you

even if in different ways

besides I am tired of all these

misunderstandings

suffering

and crying

and things got worse since I had this awful contracture

and, angel, I know you

could be different, but

since the event, things have changed

and I have completely lost my mind for the demon

(or at least his avatar, who knows if his flesh and blood version is the same)

it would not be fair

to pretend an interest in you

you are a great guy

you deserve better.

Demon

it has been exceptionally nice

meeting you

take care

of yourself...