cannot

Elektra Assassin by Bill Sienkiewicz.

For some unreasonable reason
I still care a lot for you both
but at present I cannot do otherwise
the pain is too strong
the sense of humiliation too solid
am I an assssin?
have I killed our stupendous bond?
maybe
and
maybe only your avatars
were interested in me
maybe your flesh and blood
essences
were and are not
I do not know
I know that
the other night
you two opened
a profound wound
inside myself
a wound that is still open
and keeps bleeding
I am trying to mend it
but it is not easy
I miss you
I miss you both
take care