angry

ok, I do not know what is going on

between you two or if anything is

going on at all

I hope I have not caused any trouble

but I need to be clear

angel, I have always tried to be honest

and direct with you do you remember?

I immediately wrote to you

when you entered the ‘game’

at the very beginning and since then I have

always tried to be honest

I do not know why you decided

to fool me with all those dates

and numbers, that was not nice at all 

especially after all the

things the three of us have been through

now I do not really feel like

talking to you

I am angry

and I am sorry if I was

a bit drastic in what I wrote

but I was really hurt

I could not believe it

and if you are still wondering

what I would like to do

it is to be with him

spend even only one night with him

and do you know what could happen?

well, we could even just stay in bed and stare

at each other all night long

or drink and talk about literature

I do not know

it does not have to be sex at any cost

I only know that what me and him

have is very special

do you know how he got my attention

the first time?

through my father’s death

(and please remember that this

is constantly in my mind, it is a huge loss

I still have not been able to deal with properly)

and in his marvellous way to do things

he mended some of the pain

I was suffering from

and caressed my heart

NOBODY

not even my brother or my best friends

could do that

and I will never ever forget it

angel, you have been very nice and romantic

and I cried when I listened to that song

but that was a beginning

I have already told you that

and when I wrote that poem for you

spending a whole day trying to find

the right words

you did not say anything

these kind of things

leave a mark

now it is late

now I need to be with him 

and what I am asking you

is a bit of respect

for me and him

thanks in advance 

ps - in case both of you were wondering if I am posting anything on the book full of faces, I am not, I am not posting things hidden from you, I just do not feel like being there much. If I post, it will be public. And one last thing, angel, there is going to be a cartoon of mine posted soon on the web, which has the term 'wings' in it, I drew it more than a month ago, it has nothing to do with you or us, just ot be clear.