out of your mind

Are you two out of your mind?

After nearly two months of 

misunderstandings, excitement, crying and joy

did you really have to blow it like that?

Angel, I so wanted to talk with you and explain what I could not say here

and you treated me as if I was some insignificant stranger

coming over to ruin your day

and did not even say goodbye when you left!

Demon, congratulations, that was a great plan!

Inviting me to an event where basically most of your friends would be

what did you expect me to do?

Just wait until everybody would go away?

Was there a plan at all?

Was that an ambush to make me feel ridiculous?

If that is what it was, you fully succeeded

I felt so unwelcomed and humiliated I wanted to disappear from the earth

why did you not arrange for me to come and meet you later?

Or, maybe the angel was supposed to help you here

but for once decided not to do it?

If that is how you two treat a woman you are interested in

well, you are a lost cause

do you think I am a rich girl

who can pay more than a hundred euros for a train ticket every two days?

I am not

not to mention all the trouble I went through to organize my trip there

but let’s skip that

and how do you think I felt when I left?

I cried my eyes out

left alone to wander in a city I do not know

in search of a cheap hotel

I did not talk about this to any of our common friends, I tried at the very beginning

with one but she never believed me, so I was always alone in this and ended up alone

again

again

again

the night before yesterday I could not sleep because I was so excited and nervous

I was exhausted and when I arrived in the early afternoon

I walked along the sea for a couple of hours, alone again

crying and smoking like hell

and panicking

and when I came over the angel barely spoke to me

so I left and went to drink some wine and cry again

Jeusus Christ, you two are a disaster

I was there

flesh and blood

tits and ass

and you blew it

so spectacularly,

well done!!!